its been 2 months since ive been on here…. hmm…. i swear its been more xD well anyways, i left cuz it was kinda repetitive. what was? well, everything. idk. anyways, im not quite going back yet but i just stopped by cuz my cousin reminded me of tumblr~~ LOL hope you have a nice night! :D
mmm last night i sent him a message telling him almost everything (not that i like him but that im suicidal and stuff) and it was just really depressing and everything…… i truly thought he wouldnt give a fuck. but it seems that he’s true (: he read it all throughout (trust me, it was hella long) and he responded with telling me he really does care and for me to be positive and stuff……. i was so relieved…… but its not like he’s gonna start the convo though lol ….. the only problem i hate is he says he cares yet if i never aim him up, we’ll never talk till the day i die. yet, we can never talk for a year then just leave off like we talked just a minute ago
….my name is one of the most common….. so why is it that nobody ever knows it? why is it that my personality blends in? that in one of my groups, im the most silent? at camp, i told my friend how nobody ever knows my name and she goes, “well, because everyone else has a personality. like, of course you have one too but yours blends in with ours.” wtf….. wow, way to shoot down one of the things i 100% aim for in my life. actually, i say i was once popular and shiz because people knew my name…. i lied. i guess from even when i was a baby i blended in huh. nobody says, “omg your baby sis looks like you!” its “omg you look so much like your baby sis!” what? to this day, people keep mistaking me for my mom…. even in optv everyone knows everyone’s elses name but mine…… im not known. i have no personality….. im well, to put it easily, invisible.
time is precious and life is short. i hate wasting my time on someone/something that will lead to nowhere. i want the time i invested in will be worth it. i hope you’re not wasting my time.
It happens so often. It happens without even knowing. It’s just life. There are friends that stay, yet many that go. Maybe it’s just bound to happen. It’s probably a sign that you don’t need those people in your life as much as you think you do, that’s why you keep making new friends after. No one likes to drift, but it’s normal.
